believe in what you feel inside

My mind will be my downfall.

Sometimes I think too much. For one reason or another, I've been very aware of how greedy and self-absorbed people are. It makes me think we all need some little reminders every once in awhile that there is a world out there that is much bigger than we are. We're merely a grain of sand in comparison.

No particular example jumps to mind; it's just a collective observation of the day.

I think the positive side to this odd emotional turnover (I am feeling relatively down at the moment) is that I'm completely in love with the people who have done little, sweet things for me today. It's usually the tiny things that go unmentioned, but I can most definitely throw out a list of tiny actions or words that brightened my day.

Someone holding the door open for me this morning
Being told to have a great day by the woman in the cafe
Receiving forgiveness for making a mistake as opposed to being reprimanded
Getting stopped just for small talk and a simple 'how are you?'
Being invited to spend lunch time with a friend and a stranger
Getting an invitation to join a focus group
Having my name remembered by someone I've only met once

I'm sure there are so many more, but those are the first few that came to mind. In a day that felt like it was drowning in negativity, those tiny actions made me smile. Even thinking of them now makes me want to smile.

Time to write a bit more in the written journal before curling up in bed. I'm homesick, but I think a little Jack's Mannequin and the stuffed dog I'm hopelessly fond of (like a child, yes) can help cure some of that.