Instead of diving right in with a deep, philosophical entry, this is simply a first post. I'm not quite sure what to include it in, and instead of aiming for a dolled up first impression, I'm feeling a bit more inclined to jot down a lyric that made me think twice.


"Instincts are misleading. You shouldn't think what you're feeling. They don't tell you what you know you should want."

I tend to over analyze everything in my day-to-day life: it can be something as simple as a surprised expression on the face of an almost stranger, to something as serious as, good evening cliche, the meaning of life. My mind is hopelessly overactive and my imagination is constantly tossing and turning. I'm not sure if it stems from one of my parents or if I'm simply an oddball.

Either way, my mind enjoys dwelling on thoughts and attempting to solve them like some sort of rubik's cube.

Unfortunately, I'm not sure I can entirely sort out this lyric. I know it's hopelessly simple in the sense that it's telling you an instinct is a feeling, not a thought process. But can't we intertwine the two? Can't they get so tangled up and feel so similar that we aren't sure which is which? Is that what this lyric is really all about? Getting so tangled up and turned around that we aren't sure what we are feeling and what we are thinking?

Being the over analyzer I am, and my close friends can vouch for me here, this lyric makes my head spin. I don't feel like I can sort it out in my mind and I'm sure it's something so simple that once I do figure it out, I'll feel ridiculous for not catching on immediately. I've gone so far as to make a trip to the bookstore in order to purchase post-it notes, which I immediately opened and jotted down this lyric and proceeded to stick it to my desk. I constantly see it. I see it right now. It's just hanging there, taunting me.

I'm hoping to eventually sort out this simple line that's given me a headache for the past few days. Until then, I'll admire the other two lyrics that make perfect sense in my head and that I feel like I can understand. I like lyrics that make sense to me.

"I'm in a war with head versus heart. It's always this way. My head is weak; my heart always speaks before I know what it will say."

This intertwines with instinct, but it's much easier to understand. I appreciate the simplicity of those words.

"Burn it down till the embers smoke on the ground and start new when your heart is an empty room with walls of the deepest blue."

For some reason, I'm all about the sensory lyrics. I managed to dig up a list of lyrics I collected over winter break. I was having a conversation with a friend of mine and we were attempting to throw out some of our favorite lyrics. I ended up spending about an hour going through my favorite songs and picking out the lines I adored and compiled a short list. A lot of them are sensory and deal with the human heart. It's cliche, but I am hooked on lyrics that talk about emotions, particularly romantic or tragic ones.

It's silly. And this post has turned out to be much more of a ramble than anything worth actually reading. Then again, I'm blogging for the sake of having a creative outlet. I'll most likely end up posting a copy of the one-syllable story I had to write for my advanced composition class eventually. It's quite the challenge - I would suggest to anyone who writes for pleasure to give it a shot. You might surprise yourself and create something brilliant.


And on that note, buonanotte!